Getting Away From The False Connection

Sometimes it seems like things just don't make sense. It's like someone coming around you everyday and acting like they like you and you let your guard down and you fall for it - stupidest thing you might think and I do agree it was stupid. Or was it? Do men do this to everyone I mean every women? I really rarely let my guard down and in my mind it was a big deal. Maybe i'm an ass hole lol I haven't quite figured it out yet. But what I did figure out is my feelings are more real than others it seems like men can stop liking a women in the blink of an I and here I am stuck in space no leverage to withstand this kaleidoscope of bullshit feelings. Maybe I will fall from this bullshit soon cause I don't want to ever experience anything like this ever again. Oh and never trust a mans "like" it's for everyone and then he will choose someone else over you and laugh about it and look at you like nothing ever happened - I guess nothing happened. I guess it all was fake an illusion a fantasy of some kind that I have been made to feel I stood in alone.

Life is so backwards and fucked up. I wish he would have never placed himself in my presence to only deceive me and clown me behind my back while smiling in my face. Not knowing a whole department was in on it to try to belittle me and make someone else feel like they had more value than me. Never again will I believe anything - never again.